Lord you have searched me out and known me; you know my sitting down and my rising up; you discern my thoughts from afar...You trace my journeys and my resting- places and are acquainted with all my ways. Indeed there is now a word on my lips, but you O Lord, know it altogether...Your eyes beheld my limbs, yet unfinished in the womb... [Psalm 139:1-2, 15a]
But anyone united to the Lord becomes one spirit with him...do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ...do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, which you have from God, and that you are not your own? [1 Corinthians 6:15a, 17, 19]
Nathanael said to [Philip], "Can anything good come out of Nazareth?" Philip said to him, "Come and see..." And [Jesus] said to [Nathanael], "Very truly, I tell you, you will see heaven opened and the angels of God ascending and descending upon the Son of Man." [John 1:46, 51]
[Before the Pilgrims landed at Plymouth, we were here. Before
the pen of Jefferson scratched across the pages of history the majestic words
of the Declaration of Independence, we were here. For more than two centuries
our foreparents labored here without wages; they made cotton king; and they
built the homes of their masters in the midst of brutal injustice and shameful
humiliation -- and yet out of a bottomless vitality our people continue to
thrive and develop. ~Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.]
There are many Psalms that resonate within me and Psalm 139, particularly, always has a profound effect on me when I read it. There is my Creator, my Divine Parent, who knew me while my limbs were being knitted in the womb and still traces my journeys and my resting-places. Sometimes, admittedly when I’m not at my best (too often), my inner child tries to lie lower as if not to be seen or heard by that Parent, especially when some words on my lips are, well, frankly, quite far from God-like. And then Paul reminds us that our bodies are members of Christ and a temple of the Holy Spirit. It’s far easier to intend to live up to those holy standards than to actually do so, and then I remember that God knows me, more than I know about me or want to.
Could I have been like Philip, readily follow Jesus and then invite the slightly snarky Nathanael to simply "Come and see" as Jesus, reminds Nathanael of the Jacob’s Ladder passage [Genesis 28:10-17] as the angels were ascending and descending only in this version upon the Son of Man.
I show up at church regularly, even now that it’s also online. I give to charity, do occasional good deeds for others, I even pray often and not just for Divine intervention to get myself out of a jam. But, taking in the readings for this Sunday ~ have I really answered THE CALL? Have I turned my life over to God, truly followed Jesus, and listened to the Holy Spirit? Well, God knows.
It is time again to consider how I am to live my life. It is almost never too late to begin again ~ even Constantine, the first Roman Emperor to claim conversion to Christianity, declared Christianity as a state religion, built the Church of the Holy Sepulcher in Jerusalem, the Old St Peter's Basilica, convened the Council of Nicaea in the year 325 from which we still use the Nicene Creed ~ all that, yet, he wouldn’t be baptized until his death bed, because, well, he might want to do some things so he cut it pretty close! Then there’s St. Augustine of Hippo who said in his Confessions [written between 397-400] that in the early days of his conversion he asked God to make him chaste and continent (self-controlled) but not yet. SO, when does YET arrive? Or, how many times have I waved it away? God knows.
What will it mean for my life, how will I have to change, what will others think, am I ready? Yes, God knows all about who and where I am. And as I form the words in my heart: Speak, Lord, for I, that is, ~ um, er ~ your (slightly frightened) servant, is listening. I think that maybe, possibly, I'm more or less ready to come and see what I’m called to be and do.
And then, when I read these words of Bishop Quintin Primo: What we are doing at this moment is a symbol of what black and white people must continue to do as we offer our lives to be instruments for bringing the Kingdom of God reality on earth; and Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.: because the sacred heritage of our nation and the eternal will of God are embodied in our echoing demands, suddenly I feel a sudden tingle beyond my ears that tells me “yet” has more than merely arrived! Oh my…Ok, Samuel, and Philip, Nathanael, Quintin, and Martin, walk with me, too. And, just maybe I'll even be able to pass along the tingling to someone else to come, to see, to be and to DO!
*The Making of a
Black Bishop by the Rt. Rev. Quintin E. Primo, Jr., Pub 2006:
The day of the yearly (Diocesan) Convention arrived. Presenting to the assemblage our (St. Matthew's) formal application to become a self-supporting unit of the diocese, the Rev. Canon James Birney, program developer/director for the diocese, spoke most eloquently, "What we are doing at this moment is a symbol of what black and white people must continue to do as we offer our lives to be instruments for bringing the Kingdom of God reality on earth. For the past 122 years, the white congregations have patronizingly supported the black mission of St. Matthew's. Today, when black men everywhere are breaking the bonds of patronage which we hope are the last remnants of slavery and inequality, the people of St. Matthew's now both black and white, are freeing themselves and this Diocese from bondage to each other. Subservience and patronage are both gone. The congregation is free and the Diocese is free. And being free, we are both free to be One. What binds us together now is our common loyalty to Jesus Christ and to this branch of his Church.
** Letter
from a Birmingham Jail by The Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., 1963
LET US, GOD’S PEOPLE, PRAY
Leader: ~ All-Knowing, All-Seeing God, You have searched us and known us from before we were in the womb and throughout our earthly lives. Tingle our ears and awaken our hearts to remember that we are not our own but members of Christ’s Body and living temples of Your Holy Spirit. Open us to hear again and offer our lives to be instruments for bringing the Kingdom of God to reality on earth.
~ All-Knowing, All-Seeing God, guide our path to truth, integrity, and justice in a world filled with alienation and violence among people and nations. Grant each of us, and the leaders of this Country, our local Communities, and this World, the wisdom and selflessness to choose the well-being of us all, over destructive actions of temporary earthbound-only power and greed. We pray especially for: add your own petitions
~ All-Knowing, All-Seeing God, strengthen the faith of all who suffer from debilitating illness; addiction, and/or depression, and of all who give them care. We now join our hearts to pray for those in need… add your own petitions
~ All-Knowing, All-Seeing God, whisper hope to the grieving of the joy for those now released from the trials of this life, into unbounded Glory to live again with You. We pray especially for the word and witness of Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.; … add your own petitions
~ All-Knowing, All-Seeing God, we pause in this moment to offer You our other heartfelt thanksgivings, intercessions, petitions, and memorials… add your own petitions
~ All-Knowing, All-Seeing God,
we give You special thanks for those lead us in Your church and guide us on our
journey to You. Grant them wisdom, insight, and hope, and guide them to
embolden us to follow and reflect You with our thoughts, words, and actions in
each and every day. We pray especially for:
The Celebrant adds: O God
of Power and Might, fill us with courage in seeking
the path of Christ in and beyond our personal lives, believing that by our individual
and collective actions, we shall overcome violence,
oppression, and intolerance, to establish unity and equality for all. We ask
through Your Son, Jesus our Christ; and the Holy Spirit, our Advocate; who
together with You reign as One God, One Lord of All, now and forever. Amen.