Monday, December 16, 2013
Prayer to Find and Renew My Faith
O You of the Great Beyond, are You really "up there" or "down here" or both? I know people who have no doubt in Your presence, in Your whereabouts, in Your intervention and grace. What's wrong with me?
I used to know with certainty that You were in charge of the Universe. All According to Your Will. And then - right after that day - I had a question. My question led to wonder. My wonder led to doubt. I haven't always been the best person I could be - does that make my Grace Account smaller? I wandered away. And now, I miss having You in my life. I go through the motions but I miss knowing You, even feeling that I'm part of Your Creation. But recently I became aware that I am certain of one thing, I want to find my way back. I know I won't get all the answers, and there is much I won't understand. But I know I will have something more in my life if I can get back to You.
Please, help me, Great One, I want to find and renew my faith in You. How do I begin? Let me try by borrowing from another and ask: Please lift my spirit to Your presence where I can be still and know that You are my God, with Your Son our Savior Jesus Christ and with Your Spirit Who will lift my veil of doubt. Amen.